Today, I lost you forever.
When my mother told me you were gone, the world around me felt like it suddenly stopped. I stood there in disbelief, as if the words didn’t belong to reality.
I rushed to you, tears streaming down my face. And then I saw you, lying there, cold and still. My hands trembled uncontrollably, unable to hold back the sorrow that filled my chest.
You…
How could you leave me like this, without even a small goodbye?
The pain cuts so deeply. My tears fall without end, and my body feels weak and empty. I never wanted you to go. I wanted us to stay together—laughing together, crying together, facing everything side by side.
You promised you would stay and fight your illness. Do you remember? That quiet night when I was watching a horror movie, and you stayed beside me so I wouldn’t feel afraid. When I fell asleep in front of the TV, you fell asleep next to me. Or when we ran around the house playing Tom & Jerry, and my mother would scold us for being too noisy. There are so many beautiful memories with you… how could I ever let them go?
When I saw you lying there, weak, with blood slowly flowing from your nose, fear gripped my heart. I couldn’t stop crying. You were too weak to speak, and all I could do was sit beside you, praying again and again that God would take away your pain.
Every night, I whispered your name in my prayers. I begged God to heal you, because I couldn’t imagine a world without you. You were more than a friend-you were the one who stayed, the one who understood, the one who could never be replaced. No one will ever be like you. No one ever could.
And still, I can’t believe this is real.
Today, you are truly gone.
You left me here, all alone.
Who will sit beside me now when I play, when I do my homework, when I stay up late, or when I quietly clean the house?
Now the silence feels heavier than ever.
There is no longer a friend who stays faithfully by my side, no one who makes me laugh the way you did, no one who wipes away my sadness with your gentle presence.
I keep hoping this is only a dream… a long, cruel dream I will wake up from.
Letting you go is not easy, my friend. Being left by you hurts more than any heartbreak I’ve ever known. A friend like you is so rare in this world.
I thought you would get better. I thought we would stay together until the very end. But God had other plans. Now you are no longer here, and I can’t hear your laughter-the laughter that once filled my days with warmth.
Goodbye, my dear friend.
Rest peacefully where you are now,
until the day we meet again.
I love you.
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Faj
Kamis, 03 September 2020
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